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For those of you who aren't completely sure what my YouTube Channel is all about, it is a place where I come to speak of many things. Almost like my blog! But now you all can really meet me! No, this channel will not replace my blog, as there are some things I'm just not ready to open up about on camera, but feel safe to do so here. (And I appreciate that, guys. So thank YOU).
Anyway, I am trying to inform people about mental health; specifically Bipolar Disorder, Depression, and once I learn more about others, I'll share those with you too! I also wanted to make sure that Mental Health was not ALL I spoke of...
I wanted to talk about new motherhood, being a birth mom vs. being a step mom, staying positive, being a good person, staying strong, and probably rants as well, because let's face it, I have shit to talk about.
So yeah, sounds a lot like my blog right?
I am not entirely sure where this YouTube Channel will head. But I DO know that it will head somewhere great.
And maybe I will inspire people. Teach them to be courageous. Strong. Selfless.
And more OPEN with one another!
I want to help people. NEED to help people...
It's just in my nature. So if this channel can help do that, then I will be one happy girl.
I want everyone to be okay.
Yes, I know life doesn't work that way, but at least I shared my hope, understanding, acceptance, and strength with you all. And you can take it or leave it! But honestly, who would choose to not take those things and keep them with them at all times? Even when times are tough. And horrible. And ugly.
Because we all know that those times are when we need it most.
I love you all. Each one of you matter! You ARE here!!!

My YouTube Channel!

-s.

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